6/2016 UPDATE ON LIFE WITH BAILLEY

I want to update everyone on Bailley’s life and what has been going on. She is holding her own. Some days are bad more days are good. Bailley is on all the same meds. She eats when I serve something her majesty likes. Many nights she has a big plate of several different tings offered. She does not seem to like the same thing more than twice in a row. We have to constantly be on our toes to switch her meals and come up with new combinations she may like. The one consistent thing she has for breakfast is Wellness Petite Entrees. She does not like the flake, only the casseroles. I think I have been lucky in this department because there are four different varieties and she gets a different one every morning.  Some days she will only eat half. She prefers being hand fed. So we accommodate her. When she is finished, she is finished and makes no bones about it. We always have two vultures waiting for the spoils.

Life has continued here in spite of Bailley’s ups and downs. Over the past year and a half I believe I have have started to accept how life works. I recently followed a blog about Joey & Rory Feek. If you have read their story, I think it is life changing. Their story made my heart more accepting of death. It made me realize I was allowing fear to steal my joy of everyday life. If someone so young can live so large in the face of certain death, it could be possible I was thinking of all of this in the wrong manner. For the last year and a half I have been facing losing my Grandmother in Bailley in the same breath. Funny thing is they both suffer from many of the same issues. They both seem to follow a pattern of ups and downs. I was o obsessed with the downs, I never enjoyed the ups.

I have committed to myself that life must and will go on. God gave me life to live it. I have started to find joy in things again. I am gardening again.

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We have added a few  new members to our family and we really enjoy them. Seven in all.

I have started baking fun things for the dogs

And I am enjoying each day that God gives me with my Gramma and Bailley. God never promised tomorrow to any of us. I dont know how long I will have my Gramma and Bailley wit me but they are here now. I an love them, touch them, and enjoy them now. Death will come for all of us eventually. Until then, I chose life.

1/27/16 QUALITY CONTROL

It seems in the last week or two Bailley is slipping back. She was getting up in the middle of the night for potty and she seemed depressed, like she wasn’t feeling herself. She also wanted to drink at the bottle forever so I started leaving her up at the bottle and going back to bed. Five days with no sleep was starting to wear on me. She would find her way through the dark back to the bedroom and demand to be put back in bed. Not ideal, but it was working.

She refuses to eat dog food, or food I make her. She got so bad I went to the grocery store and walked around for over an hour gathering things to offer her, hoping she would eat something. I bought ground beef, tilapia from the seafood market, jar baby food ( meat varieties) jar baby turkey sticks, and chicken vienna sausage, (her favorite) I dont like giving her these because of the salt content. We had some smoked turkey breast, not lunch meat but a breast we smoked on the grill.

I did get her eating again by offering these things in shifts. I started her on antibiotics which seemed to help her need for middle of the night drinking and potty breaks. Not sure what was going on but whatever it was has subsided, for now. She did perk up and started doing every day things again.  So now we are at eating but now great. I do manage to get her meds down in some kind of food. She eats jar baby food, loves ground beef slightly warm, not cooked, and if I mix the ground beef in a little of the chicken food I make she will eat it, so she is getting some vitamins. Im not happy with this new eating menu but, she is eating and seems stable.

I can see the decline in her condition. I know she is not doing as well as she was. Im not certain if this decline will continue or if this is just another bump in the road. This disease seems to cause her health to ebb and flow. I have learned to take it day by day. I feel stronger to face what lies ahead with her. Realizing more and more death is a part of life. You cannot have one without the other.

The video below was taken a couple days ago. Bailley is back to her quality control job in the packing room for Simply BePaws. She really takes her job serious. She normally thrashes about in the peanuts much more than you see in the video. She was almost finished when I grabbed the phone.  You can hear the house phone ringing in the background.  I dont normally answer the phone because as you can see I have much more important things to attend to. Savoring every single moment I have with my sweet “B”

12/21/15 THE GIFT

I have a very special reader who I have never meet. We simply share one awesome common interest, we love our Tzu!  This person has touched my heart in a way that they will never know. Last year, in the throws of losing hope, hope for my precious Bailley as she was so very sick, and hope for my Grandmother as she laid in a hospital possibly dying from cancer.  I came home late one evening from the hospital to find a small box sitting in the light by my front door.

I picked the box up and carried it in the house. Laid it on the counter. There were dogs to feed and potty, no time for a quick peek in the box.  My precious Bailley staggered over to greet me and the worry for my Grandmother took a back seat to a rush of pain and fear of the thought of my life without “B” as that very thing was a constant fear. Bailley had not eaten in a few days. Small licks of this or that but for the most part she was so sick she could not eat. I was shoving spoonful of baby food down her throat just to keep nutrition in her. After everyone went out to potty, I started the ritual of feeding. I feed everyone else and sat on the floor with a fresh offering of the very best canned food money could buy. I was prepared to pull out the jar of baby food as something wonderful happened. Bailley actually ate a few bits of food!! For the first time in a few weeks I felt  the veil of stress slightly fall away and took deep breaths so I could remember this small moment of joy I had with my baby as she ate!!

After such a joyous event I felt anxious to see what was in the box. I opened it up and a letter from someone I never meet was on top. The letter was very touching. It talked of their family and their lives, the darkness they were going thorough and the light that two little Shih Tzu brought. There was a BIG bag of pecans and an explanation that the state they lived in contained THE PECAN CAPITOL of the world!! WOW! I didn’t know that! There were photos in the box of their Tzu and family. Beautiful photos of their lives. They had been to my site and loved all my babies. They felt a connection with me and felt compelled to reach out in a most heart felt way. I was deeply moved by this box. So much that my spirit once again starting to feel a bit of hope. Hope for humanity, hope for the lives I was so burdened with, hope that I would be able to accept whatever was to be. Just a small gesture let in just enough light that things did not seem so grim.

The pecans are long since gone but the photos are still with me. I come across them every once in a while and it brings back memories of the box and letter that touched my heart.

This year a new box showed up. It was another gift from my special internet friends. Inside the box this year was a wonderful bag of pecans and a yummy bag of home made treats for the Tzu. There was a letter once again that gave me a small peak into their lives and a recipe for the treats enclosed. It just amazes me that someone I have never meet can take the time out of their lives to think of us here at Tian Mi Shih Tzu and not only send well wishes but this very special box with a heart felt connection. How can someone I have never meet know me so well? I love pecans, I think this was just a guess, doesn’t everyone love pecans? I simply adore my Shih Tzu. Photos of a life being lived and blessed with Shih Tzu, treats for my sweet little babies, a recipe with photos of the process! WOW! It doesn’t get any better! Doesn’t it make anyone feel good to know someone thought they were special enough to take time out of their lives to think of them in such a special way?

So here is the photo of the box contents after opening

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The Tzu LOVED the snacks!!

Here is the recipe

1 1/4 lb fresh, no bone baked salmon – skinned (350 degrees)

2 medium / small sweet potatoes

1 head fresh broccoli steamed to fork mashable

1 c blueberries (Bailleys favorite!)

1 1/2 c unsweetened applesauce

3/4 c golden flaxseed meal

Mash everything into paste, will be like batter. Spread on dehydrator trays and score for break up.  Dehydrate for 4 hours at 160 – he uses a jerky gun (see photos below)

Photos of the process that were enclosed with the GIFT!

 

I cannot tell my not so new internet friends how much I have enjoyed their “gift” of friendship!!! Bailley will be making the treats as soon as our gift sample is gone!

 

 

 

11/29/2015 HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY BAILLEY

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I am so thankful God gave me another year with my sweet baby. A year ago she was so sick that surviving another year seemed the equivalent to climbing My St Helen.  It has been a tough year but there have been so many wonderful memories that I have managed to save forever in many photos.

On Thanksgiving night we went to bed like any other night. Bailley curled up in her happy spot right by my head. It was no time before sweet sleep washed over all five of the hopeful lives the snuggled into bed. Around 2:30 Bailley woke up crying and uncomfortable. I tried to comfort her bet she became frantic and her crying was more urgent. I got up with her and we went out to potty. She circled around a bit confused but managed her way over to the grass and did her business. We came back inside but I could tell something was not right. She was anxious and crying, pacing and fearful. She was acting like she did when she has the last attack that left her completely blind for six days. She could see but I could tell it was VERY limited. I lay on the floor with her and she continued to be VERY anxious. This went on for hours. Nothing I did would settle her. She was panting so much I started to get concerned about her swallowing to much air and making her bloat. I decided to give her a dose of Hydracodone syrup. It took about twenty minutes but she started to calm and we went back to bed.

Upon waking Friday morning, I noticed her symptoms had returned. Something was wrong. I called and we took her to see Doc McDaniel. After a through exam Doc believed she has some kind of mini stroke and she was suffering from effects of it that was making her upset and afraid. I was VERY upset that this has happened again. It is hard feeling so helpless when you know something is not right. Doc gave Bailley a small amount of trazodone to calm her. We laid with Bailley in the exam room waiting for the medication to take effect. We stayed to make sure there were no unwanted side effects and to make sure it worked as we hoped it would. Within 20 minutes Bailley was relaxed. She could still walk and was alert, just not panicking.  We took her home with a script of Trazodone just in case we needed it again. She has been fine ever since. The only thing I notice is that one of her eyes seems to not be as wide open as the other.

On Sunday the Birthday event was a bit subdued. No big party or hoopla. She is 15 and she wanted to spend a quite birthday with rest. She did have a special turkey concoction with all the innards from the Thanksgiving turkey.  Made special for her and she loved it.  I bought a very special Birthday dress and she wore it all day. I cannot tell you how adorable she looked slumbering in her purple dress. In celebratory fashion we had a small photo session to save her special day forever.

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11/12/15 WE MADE IT TO NOVEMBER

I finally made it back to update on Bailley and all the goings on around here. In early October I started to notice Bailleys face was staining, her hunger and excessive thirst was returning. I feel like the dosage of Ketoconozole we were giving had lost its effectiveness. On October 28 Bailley went to visit Doc Mary. We decided to raise her ketoconazole to 50 mg twice a day instead of once. I am not certain it is working as of yet but her symptoms do seem to be slowing down.

Doc listened to her heart before she looked at her records. She likes to do an exam without looked at the records so her opinion is unbiased. I appears Bailleys heart had strengthened. We all know the heart is a muscle and cannot repair its self but it does appear it is working more efficient. She even said she would grade it a 3 – 4 WOW!!! Maybe the supplements are working?

Phoebe had an appointment that day as well because she has started to look like a butter bal and all of the sudden seems to LOVE to eat. My worst fear was she would have Cushings. A complete panel was run on her and everything turned out NORMAL! No issues at all, just a little chunky. Guess who’s on a diet???

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So as for Bailley, She is very firm about eating dinner and tells me so! She does find many things objectionable though. I tell her beggars cant be choosers but she stands firm. She seems to tire of some of my homemade meals. The last batch of food I made had chicken and livers and broccoli. Talk about STINK!!! She ate it for a couple days and decided it was not for her. The other dogs LOVE it!! She can be a major pain with her eating. I will be cooking soon and I will post a new recipe. I have to come up with something different. AND YUMMY!! No pressure.

BIRTHDAY

I hate to get over excited but we have made it to November and she seems to be doing well.It appears we will make it to 15!!!! I am trying to come up with ideas for the best photo session ever!!! Her Birthday is 11/29 and photos will be taken that day. Stay tuned to see what crazy wonderful something I come up with.  Any ideas are appreciated!!

LAST YEARS PHOTO

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